If your heart so dictates you let go of the trapeze ,and plunge into yawning abyss! Have faith you are throwing yourself into the arms of the living God ! I know it is not easy , but the Lord of Life , in whose name you said to your yearnings , does not take His eyes of you, He won’t let you fall passively, to break yourself , He will hold you up and guide you with a firm hand .And this always moving forth -this is what life is about .