Father Csaba’s reflection on the gospel Thursday 4 April 2019
"But I know that you do not have the love of God in you. "John 5, 46
Harsh talk! But before we start arguing with Jesus let's think how seriously do I take the first of the ten commandments :-“'You must worship the LORD your God and serve only him.’” !? How much would I give myself on a scale of one out of ten on my love of God ?! And here I am not thinking on the quantity of prayers that I have said , but not even on the distribution of gifts since Saint Paul wrote it beautifully in the Ode to Love :13 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned,[a] but have not love, I gain nothing.” Corinthians 13, 1-3
How much do I love my Lord , my God !? How much do I seek His opinion in the way I lead my life , in my decisions, do I let Him to take my hand and lead me lovingly ? Do I dare to step on on roads with Him, next to Him that are narrow , steep, frightening ? Perhaps the most important question is : whom do I expect my happiness from , the giver of gifts or His gifts !? Everything and everyone is God’s precious gift one could say that our loving God’s wedding band , but whom do we love with burning love the ring or our betrothed who offers us everything ?
Recently I spoke with a woman who wants to leave her husband, job, homeland , everything ! She asked for my opinion, I encouraged her to faithfulness , perseverance and she took my hand and asked desperately hasn’t she got any right for happiness ? A very big question ! What is it that can make us happy ? An exciting journey, nice food , a big house , a new person offering a lot , built on the ruins of a family that took years to build ?
I am sitting in front of my creator God ! I feel very certainly my Lord that You are the happiness Yourself ! See, I have not even set out and I reached my goal ! I conquered without action ! The water bursts to the surface so that my life beside You will be a well with a spring and not a cesspit ! I am not asking however I am giving , I am not desiring happiness anymore , Would like to give, to share that light , magnificence that made me joyful! You can share the great God’s treasury !
translated by dr k.e.
The Word of God
‘If I testify about myself, my testimony is not true. There is another who testifies on my behalf, and I know that his testimony to me is true. You sent messengers to John, and he testified to the truth. Not that I accept such human testimony, but I say these things so that you may be saved. He was a burning and shining lamp, and you were willing to rejoice for a while in his light. But I have a testimony greater than John’s. The works that the Father has given me to complete, the very works that I am doing, testify on my behalf that the Father has sent me. And the Father who sent me has himself testified on my behalf. You have never heard his voice or seen his form, and you do not have his word abiding in you, because you do not believe him whom he has sent.
‘You search the scriptures because you think that in them you have eternal life; and it is they that testify on my behalf. Yet you refuse to come to me to have life. I do not accept glory from human beings. But I know that you do not have the love of God in you. I have come in my Father’s name, and you do not accept me; if another comes in his own name, you will accept him. How can you believe when you accept glory from one another and do not seek the glory that comes from the one who alone is God? Do not think that I will accuse you before the Father; your accuser is Moses, on whom you have set your hope. If you believed Moses, you would believe me, for he wrote about me. But if you do not believe what he wrote, how will you believe what I say?’